Dearest Mary Jane, my heart aches for you and although I don't know Mars I know exactly what it's like to lose it at the vet.
We are all here to support you in any way that we can, whether through private message or on the forum. Please don't hesitate to let us know when you need us. Special thoughts and prayers going out to you and your precious, loving boy.
I couldn't have said it better! I know its hard. I look at my Eli everyday and wonder what else can I do??? Sometimes we feel so helpless but the truth is we are doing our very best and that's all we can ask of ourselves. Mars is so lucky to have you and I know he knows it.
And don't worry about crying. I cry all the time now and I just don't care what others might think of it. I don't know where crying got such a bad rap. Its not a sign of weakness but rather a sign that we are human and there's nothing wrong with that.
Hugs and we are here for you!!!!