Wolf died about 6:45, Thursday July 28 and I want to make my farewell here before this week of loss ends.
I thought I wanted to adopt Wolf because he was gorgeous and he was shy and needed a quiet home. Once I met him, I simply wanted to be with him. He leaned on me that boiling day and that contact was the most natural thing in the world.
It may tell you something about Wolf that my husband and I alternated taking him for the first walk in the morning and giving him breakfast. We alternated not so one person could sleep later, we alternated because Wolf was so terribly sweet first thing in the morning we had to share. For me the greeting involved Wolf throwing himself on his back and writhing, waving his paws in the air. When his MegaE developed that was really not a great posture for him. Here's a fuzzy picture of his first winter with us.
Not knowing dogs well, I was unprepared for how enormously gentle Wolf was. His mouth was so soft that I actually put into his mouth the bits of chicken for desensitization. Well that was a lot of desensitization because my dear dog really was afraid of people. We learned that the hard way when three days after finishing a six week training course, he bit a nice neighbor. That called for some learning about dog behavior and how to modify it. But chicken and time did their part and Wolf became calm around people. In fact, his groomer thought he was her best dog, the staff in the veterinary hospital tended just to say that they love him.
My husband jogs regularly, thank goodness and he wanted Wolf to run with him. They did during good weather, but Wolf really preferred to stay close to home rather than follow the running path.
It is important for me to tell you that Wolf made me a different person. I am by nature and by training a scientist. I like to analyze and take things apart. The idea of a wholistic view of reality is foreign to me. Caring for my dear dog forced me to stop thinking and actually pay attention. I wanted to know how he felt and that required actually looking: not rationalizing, not analyzing, just observing. I can't pretend to maintain that receptiveness much of the time, but I have some sense of its value.
The link to another mind is so terribly rich. Thank you, Wolf.